Yes.

I don’t really have anything extremely interesting to write about, because currently my life is very stable. In it’s own, dull and a bit depressing way. Yesterday I helped my mother to buy a new computer that would have enough power to let her edit her high-resolution photos. She’s taken up photographing again, and I’m actually really proud of her. It’s great that she finally has the courage and energy to do the things she loves.

Now that we are on the subjects of dear hobbies, I can’t wait until tomorrow when I can get on a horse again. I had to cancel both of my riding lessons last week, because first I was ill and then I had an exam overlapping with the other. I need all the practice I can get before the dressage competition I’m supposed go to on the 22nd. I have never in my life competed in riding and, honestly, I’m terrified that I will make a complete fool out of myself.

That’s me in the picture (that my mother took, btw), riding the horse I’m supposed to ride to the competition as well. He is adorable, regardless of the fact that he isn’t an easy ride — not for me at least. But he is very well trained and I know that he knows how to do just about everything my teacher asks us to do. The problem is that I’m not good enough rider to get him to deliver. It’s sometimes extremely frustrating trying to remain calm and keep on trying when it feels as if everything I do just makes the situation worse. But he has taught me a lot in a very short time, probably more than all the other horses I’ve ridden in my life.

The test itself is actually rather easy and if I were to ride a horse that was more forgiving, I wouldn’t bee this scared. In that case I could just stay focused on trying to remember what movement I’m supposed to do next. But I guess that’s not really the point, it wouldn’t be a good measure of my ability to perform under pressure, if I would be able to just “go trough the motions“.

Still, I’m scared I’ll fail and I probably will.

I just finished putting up some content. I uploaded a one premade layout, published one old tutorial I wrote for my friend and archived all my fanfiction to the site. And I already feel really fed up with the content and have this terrible urge to code something. *sighs*

That has been kind of my problem for these past years, I have tons of layouts and I constantly make new ones, but I can’t get any content into my site and thus never get the site properly set up. That’s why I forced myself to pick an old design from my hard-drive and decided that this time I would actually manage to put all the material online I have planned for the site.

What’s the point of this entry? Nothing, really.

…. especially when you have a bored and slightly crazy puppy hanging on your sleeve. Anyway, this is the first post. I actually finally pulled myself together and finished installing WordPress and managed to fill the template with some actual content. Yay.